I have really struggled with this first post!!  I guess every blogger/writer frets over those first words.  I have struggled with thoughts as to whether anyone really would be interested in anything I had to say and asking, “Did God really say do this?”, and the answer was always YES!!   These last few years I have been in a battle with the Lord without realizing what I was doing.  I sensed something was wrong but basically ignored it.  He has been speaking and I haven’t been listening.  Even when I did stop to listen, I didn’t move.  Disobedience  takes you out of God’s will and believe me, it has affected me in ways that I never would purposely walk through again.  I was miserable, plain and simple.  I was plagued with anger, resentment, self-doubt, guilt & depression to name a few.  My life was spinning out of control and the more I tried to control the outcome the more out of control it became.

You see I had worked most of my adult life in our family business  My identity was caught up in it.  I couldn’t see it because I was so wrapped up and consumed by it.  My physical, emotional and spiritual well being were suffering and I kept making excuses to myself that (1) I wanted to honor my parents by staying and helping them out (2) I couldn’t see myself doing anything else (3) How would I make a living, because we couldn’t live on one income. (4) what would others say and (5)  I might not have an inheritance if I leave .  These were all the thoughts playing over and over in my head and believe me God doesn’t cause all this confusion or indecision.

It wasn’t until my wonderful husband told me after one of my many crying spells, that enough was enough!  I had to quit because he wanted his wife back.  When he said this, I knew his words were from the mouth of God.  It still took me a few months and lots of time in prayer and study that I knew clearly that it was time to move!!  Move into what God’s plan had been all along.  He wanted me home, for how long I don’t know.  That is up to Him, but I am submitting to his will and his plan for my life. He reminds me everyday that He will be my inheritance.  Has it been easy?  No, I have grieved the loss of relationships, position and income, but I know that God’s plan far exceeds anything I could ever think or do.

I am finding my identity in him and it has been amazing!!  He is stretching me in ways that are beyond my wildest dreams.  And dreams, well, I wouldn’t even allow myself to dream because I was afraid of disappointment. That has all changed now!!  I am starting a small business from home not necesarily for the income, but we have learned that being idle for too long is never God’s intention.  Our home was a gift to us from my parents and we are in the process of making it our little piece of heaven by filling it with all the things we love.  It is our little cabin in the woods!!  I always said that my idea of paradise would be to have a cabin in the woods along a stream.  God has provided that and even more.   I am glad to be home!!  Home!!  That word evokes so many emotions inside of me.  It represents rest, refuge, covering, family and God.  All the things I had once inspired to do are becoming a reality.  My prayer is that each post in someway will encourage you  to  spend everyday Living Life Inspired!!

Tell me how you are being inspired today by commenting below.  I look forward to hearing from you!!